Farewell Tour of a Terminal Optimist by John Young

35428869Title: Farewell Tour of a Terminal Optimist

Author: John Young

Publisher + date: Floris Books / September 15th 2017

Rating: ★★★★

Genre: YA

Review copy provided by NetGalley in exchange for a honest review, thank you!



Quick-witted, sharp-tongued Connor Lambert won’t take it any longer: the bullying, the secrets, the sympathy. He’s been dying from cancer for years, but he’s not dead yet. He’s going down fighting.

Forming an unlikely friendship with fellow juvenile delinquent Skeates, the pair stage a break out and set off on a crazy tour across Scotland — dodging the police, joy riding and extreme partying — to find Connor’s dad, an inmate at Shotts prison.

But Connor’s left two things behind — the medication he needs to keep him alive, and the girl who makes living bearable.

A fresh and bold debut novel full of heart, guts and raw emotion. Farewell Tour of a Terminal Optimist is a brilliantly funny, thrilling exploration of friendship, identity and mortality populated with witty, sharply drawn characters.

What I think of it

This is really a very nice book to read while you’re on vacation.
It’s a light read which will make you laugh out loud but will also make you tear up a bit because after all it’s about a dying teen (and to be honest it’s not possible to not like him).

The writing in general is great, no hard words so readable for any age.

The characters are very interesting and unique, which made the book fun to read. unfortunately the plot is a bit unrealistic & rushed over which made me enjoying the book less.

I do recommend this book to whoever wants to have a fun book to read and doesn’t mind to tear up now and then and trust me if you have a heart, you absolutely will tear up.

Céline. ❤

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Unboxing Owlcrate: Comic explosion!

Another month means a new Owlcrate box!
I was quite excited about this box as I knew there would be some great stuff inside it, unfortunately I got spoiled on Instagram before I received the box yet I was very happy when it finally arrived 😀


This month’s box had a Funko pop inside! There were 7 different characters you had the chance to get, I was lucky enough to get.. Harley Quinn! I was kinda hoping to get her or Loki so I literally did a little scream and happy dance when I saw her in my box


I loved the goodies! There’s a comic attack pen from Ooly with 6 different colors of ink which is super easy to use and it writes well! An awesome zipper pull created by Owlcrate itself. A super cute mini candle by Dio Candle Company, inspired by Wonder woman’s tropical island, smells delicious! Last but not least there were also some very tasty coffee candies from Käfe! Zing!


We also got a first chapter sampler of a brand new comic AFAR by Image Comics! I’ve read it and I loved it, I’m definitely going to buy myself that comic! There’s also an exclusive art piece included in the box created by Francesca Zappia.


This month’s book is Eliza and her monsters which is Francesca Zappia’s new book! She’s also the author of Made you up. You can read the synopsis of Eliza and her monsters here, it’s definitely worth to read. I really wanted to read that book so I was quite happy when I saw it in the box. It also included a signed bookplate and a letter!


So here you go, this was this month’s Owlcrate unboxing!
Have you got the box and what do you think of it?

Next month’s theme is…. Make it out alive!


Smoke signals (Burn this) by Ashley Dun

18697758_10211142576138070_1960561965_oTitle: Smoke signals (Burn this)

Author: Ashley Dun

Publisher: Secret Midnight Press

Rating: ★★★★★

Genre: Poetry




“One year has passed
since you buried yourself in
my soul
made a home underneath my skin
and even though you’re gone
you’ve left behind pieces of your
shrapnel from the war and
it hurts when I move in a certain way
your remnants dig into my flesh
and a flash
a picture of you blinds me and
I’m broken down again
you left your pieces and
you took some of mine with
you and
I will never be the same”


This is a chronicle of life, seasons, heartbreak, and healing. Poems to make you feel less alone, loved, understood. The light fades and sometimes seems so far away, but spring will always come. The sun is always just behind the clouds. We hold on together and these words create the rope that can lift us out of the hole that so easily catches us. Grab on. Let it lift you. (Source + buy here)

What I think of it

This is definitely one of the best poetry books I have read, it’s absolutely wonderful.

It’s in 4 parts: “the fire”, “the falling”, “the dark” and “the rebirth”. I enjoyed all four but I think “the falling” was my favourite. The poems are mostly about being in love and heartbreak but also about mental health, letting go and healing. I love how all poems had personal meanings and were individual but at the same time they’re all connected to each other and anyone could relate to some of them. As said in the synopsis “Poems to make you feel less alone, loved, understood” they really do make you feel less alone and makes you understand that even if your heart is broken, you will heal no matter what.

I met Ashley during a Vesperteen house concert in Belgium but unfortunately I didn’t had the chance to read her book before. I must say that she’s an absolute sweetheart and when you have read the poems and then see how she is in person you just know she has a heart full of love.

I totally recommend this poetry book, if you have read Rupi Kaur’s book Milk and Honey then I promise you you’ll absolutely love this one as well.

Céline. ❤


Rarity from the hollow by Robert Eggleton

32993259Title: Rarity from the hollow

Author: Robert Eggleton

Publisher: Dog Horn

Rating: ★★★★

Genre: Adult fiction, child abuse

Review copy provided by the author, Thank you!



“Complaining is like sitting in a rocking chair.
You can get lots of motion, but you ain’t going anywhere.”


Lacy Dawn’s father relives the Gulf War, her mother’s teeth are rotting out, and her best friend is murdered by the meanest daddy on Earth. Life in The Hollow isn’t great. But Lacy has one advantage — she’s been befriended by a semi-organic, semi-robot who works with her to cure her parents. He wants something in exchange, though. It’s up to her to save the Universe.

Will Lacy Dawn’s predisposition, education, and magic be enough for her to save the Universe, Earth, and, most importantly, protect her own family?

Rarity from the Hollow is adult literary science fiction filled with tragedy, comedy and satire. It is a children’s story for adults, not for the prudish, faint of heart, or easily offended.

What I think of it

This is definitely an adults book, it has explicit sexual scenes and child abuse (sexual also). This is normally not a book I would pick up as I have been abused as a child as well and I try to avoid books/films that has anything to do with it. But when the author messaged me with a review request of his book and hearing the whole meaning behind this book, I couldn’t say no.

So I’ve read it once.. correction, I’ve read it twice.

I enjoyed the book so much that a few months after reading it I just picked it up again. I must say it’s a hard one to read, some scenes are really explicit and it reminded me of stuff in the past but somehow it also made me feel less alone. It made me realize that there are so many children in this world getting abused, going through the stuff I have been through.

The first time I read it, it took me a while to get into it. The first few chapters are quite confusing and you don’t really know what’s happening but the more you get into it the better it gets. The fact that there’s sci-fi/fantasy in it (such as genderless alien DotCom) kinda makes the book easier to read, less heavy on some moments.

I wasn’t sure what rating I should give this book, as much as I wanted to give it 5 stars I didn’t as to me it was still really heavy and hard to read on some moments as it took me right back to my past.

I want to thank the author for sending me a copy of his book. I highly recommend this book to anyone who’s 18+ but do keep in mind it’s a very heavy book to read yet so worth it.

you can buy the book here

Half of author proceeds are donated to the prevention of child maltreatment. http://www.childhswv.org/

Céline. ❤

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The princess saves herself in this one by Amanda Lovelace

30075802Author: Amanda Lovelace

Title: The princess saves herself in this one

Publisher: CreateSpace

Rating: ★★

Genre: Poetry



“once upon a time,
the princess rose from the ashes her dragon lovers made of her
& crowned herself the mother-fucking queen of herself”


“Ah, life- the thing that happens to us while we’re off somewhere else blowing on dandelions & wishing ourselves into the pages of our favorite fairy tales.”

A poetry collection divided into four different parts: the princess, the damsel, the queen, & you. the princess, the damsel, & the queen piece together the life of the author in three stages, while you serves as a note to the reader & all of humankind. Explores life & all of its love, loss, grief, healing, empowerment, & inspirations.

What I think of it

I did like the fact that the poems are very personal and honest and makes you relate to some but hitting space after every word doesn’t make it poetry. I don’t want to sound awful as I know the author has put a lot into this book and it’s very personal to her and I do agree that this is a beautiful book but it’s not a poetry book, I see it more as creative writing.

Some poems are very heavy, very personal which made me sometimes quite uncomfortable to read (I don’t know why, maybe because I could relate to it) but then again others were very light and easy. You can tell that the author poured her heart into this book.

Overall it was okay but I won’t pick it up again

Céline. ❤


Stupid flowers by Brice Maiurro

unnamedAuthor: Brice Maiurro

Title: Stupid flowers

Publisher: Punch Drunk Press Ltd.

Rating: ★★★

Genre: Poetry

Review copy provided by Brice Maiurro in exchange for a honest review, thank you!


do not trust
that you
have not seen


strike that.

do not trust


Poetry. Brice Maiurro is a poet out of Denver, Colorado who performs regularly at events throughout the front range. His poems have previously been featured in various places including the Denver Post, Birdy Magazine and Suspect Press. In his first collection, Brice Maiurro takes us poem by poem through different life experiences ranging from the mundane to the divine, the funny and the dark. (Source)

What I think of it

I haven’t been into poetry until a few months ago and I must say I do not like every kind of poetry.

I have mixed feelings about this book.

I enjoyed the poems in general, some made me laugh, others were more serious and actually made you think about things in life. But then again some were just so long and kinda lost my concentration halfway through. I think I will reread this book at some point in my life again and maybe I’ll appreciate it more. I totally recommend this book if you have read and enjoyed all sorts of poetry before.

On a side note: The author is an absolute sweetheart, very kind.

Céline. ❤


Words on bathroom walls by Julia Walton

25695640Author: Julia Walton

Title: Words on bathroom walls

Publisher + date: July 4th 2017 by Random House Books for Young Readers

Rating: ★★★★★ (all the stars of the universe)

Genre: YA, mental health

Review copy provided by NetGalley in exchange for a honest review, thank you!

“You can’t possibly know what it means to doubt everything.”


Fans of More Happy Than Not, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, and It’s Kind of a Funny Story will cheer for Adam as he struggles with schizophrenia in this brilliantly honest and unexpectedly funny debut.

Adam has just been diagnosed with schizophrenia. He sees and hears people who aren’t there: Rebecca, a beautiful girl who understands him; the Mob Boss, who harasses him; and Jason, the naked guy who’s unfailingly polite. It should be easy to separate the real from the not real, but Adam can’t.

Still, there’s hope. As Adam starts fresh at a new school, he begins a drug trial that helps him ignore his visions. Suddenly everything seems possible, even love. When he meets Maya, a fiercely intelligent girl, he desperately wants to be the great guy that she thinks he is. But then the miracle drug begins to fail, and Adam will do anything to keep Maya from discovering his secret. (Source)

What I think of it

Ladies and gentlemen I want to present you all my new favourite book.

Words on bathroom walls tells the story of Adam who has schizophrenia and is taking the experimental medication ToZaPrex to help him control his mental illness. On top of this he’s starting a new school where he tries to hide his illness as much as he can. He’s also seeing a therapist but Adam refuses to talk so instead he writes letters.

I must say I had my doubts before starting this book. I have tried to read so many books about it or that handles the mental illness yet they’re never any good, or they’re just very disrespectful.

But this book is just perfect. I used to have a friend with schizo who unfortunately took his own life and this book gives you a proper look on how living with schizophrenia is like and what people with it have to go through everyday.

If you want to know more about what it is like to live with schizophrenia then I totally recommend you to read this wonderful book. If I had the money I would buy a million copies and give them away, this is a very important book.

As someone who had a friend with schizophrenia I’d like to thank the author,
thank you for writing a book that handles schizophrenia in a respectful way.

Céline. ❤

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The Upside of Unrequited by Becky Albertalli

30653853Title: The Upside of Unrequited

Author: Becky Albertalli

Publisher + date: April 11th 2017 by Balzer & Bray/Harperteen

Rating: ★★★★★

Genre: YA, GBLT, Contemporary

Review copy provided by NetGalley in exchange for a honest review, thank you!

“I’m on the toilet at the 9:30 Club and I’m wondering how mermaids pee.”


Seventeen-year-old Molly Peskin-Suso knows all about unrequited love. No matter how many times her twin sister, Cassie, tells her to woman up, Molly can’t stomach the idea of rejection. So she’s careful. Fat girls always have to be careful.

Then a cute new girl enters Cassie’s orbit, and for the first time ever, Molly’s cynical twin is a lovesick mess. Meanwhile, Molly’s totally not dying of loneliness—except for the part where she is. Luckily, Cassie’s new girlfriend comes with a cute hipster-boy sidekick. If Molly can win him over, she’ll get her first kiss and she’ll get her twin back.
There’s only one problem: Molly’s coworker, Reid. He’s a chubby Tolkien superfan with a season pass to the Ren Faire, and there’s absolutely no way Molly could fall for him.


What I think of it

When I saw it was available to request on Netgalley I knew I had to grab my chance, I didn’t like Simon vs. the homo sapiens agenda (I didn’t even finish the book) but I really wanted to try out this one.

Thank God my request was accepted because I loved every single page.

This book is full of great characters like seriously: multiple lesbian characters, pansexual character, bisexual character, gay character, Jewish main character, Molly and Cassie have 2 mums, mental health, AND SO MUCH MORE

I adored Molly. She’s so intelligent, funny and full of great ideas and also very insecure about herself and her body BUT she’s so full of love.

I really fell in love with this book, I’m definitely going to buy a psychical copy so I can re-read it asap.

Please go buy and read the best book I have read so far in 2017, I promise you, you won’t regret it.

Céline. ❤


April book releases I look forward to

Geekerella (April 4th)

Geek girl Elle Wittimer lives and breathes Starfield, the classic sci-fi series she grew up watching with her late father. So when she sees a cosplay contest for a new Starfield movie, she has to enter. The prize? An invitation to the ExcelsiCon Cosplay Ball, and a meet-and-greet with the actor slated to play Federation Prince Carmindor in the reboot. With savings from her gig at the Magic Pumpkin food truck (and her dad’s old costume), Elle’s determined to win…unless her stepsisters get there first.

Teen actor Darien Freeman used to live for cons—before he was famous. Now they’re nothing but autographs and awkward meet-and-greets. Playing Carmindor is all he’s ever wanted, but Starfield fandom has written him off as just another dumb heartthrob. As ExcelsiCon draws near, Darien feels more and more like a fake—until he meets a girl who shows him otherwise. But when she disappears at midnight, will he ever be able to find her again?

Part romance, part love letter to nerd culture, and all totally adorbs, Geekerella is a fairy tale for anyone who believes in the magic of fandom. (Source)

Alex, Approximately (April 4th)

In this delightfully charming teen spin on You’ve Got Mail, the one guy Bailey Rydell can’t stand is actually the boy of her dreams—she just doesn’t know it yet.

Classic movie buff Bailey “Mink” Rydell has spent months crushing on a witty film geek she only knows online by “Alex.” Two coasts separate the teens until Bailey moves in with her dad, who lives in the same California surfing town as her online crush.

Faced with doubts (what if he’s a creep in real life—or worse?), Bailey doesn’t tell Alex she’s moved to his hometown. Or that she’s landed a job at the local tourist-trap museum. Or that she’s being heckled daily by the irritatingly hot museum security guard, Porter Roth—a.k.a. her new arch-nemesis. But life is whole lot messier than the movies, especially when Bailey discovers that tricky fine line between hate, love, and whatever-it-is she’s starting to feel for Porter.

And as the summer months go by, Bailey must choose whether to cling to a dreamy online fantasy in Alex or take a risk on an imperfect reality with Porter. The choice is both simpler and more complicated than she realizes, because Porter Roth is hiding a secret of his own: Porter is Alex…Approximately. (Source)

The End of Our Story (April 4th)

Meg Haston’s romantic and thrilling new YA novel explores a star-crossed high school relationship in a tale rife with deeply buried secrets and shocking revelations.

Bridge and Wil have been entangled in each other’s lives for years. Under the white-hot Florida sun, they went from kids daring each other to swim past the breakers to teenagers stealing kisses between classes. But when Bridge betrayed Wil during their junior year, she shattered his heart and their relationship along with it.

Then Wil’s family suffers a violent loss, and Bridge rushes back to Wil’s side. As they struggle to heal old wounds and start falling for each other all over again, Bridge and Wil discover just how much has changed in the past year. As the fierce current of tragedy threatens to pull them under, they must learn how to swim on their own—or risk drowning together. (Source)

The Upside of Unrequited (April 11th)

Seventeen-year-old Molly Peskin-Suso knows all about unrequited love. No matter how many times her twin sister, Cassie, tells her to woman up, Molly can’t stomach the idea of rejection. So she’s careful. Fat girls always have to be careful.

Then a cute new girl enters Cassie’s orbit, and for the first time ever, Molly’s cynical twin is a lovesick mess. Meanwhile, Molly’s totally not dying of loneliness—except for the part where she is. Luckily, Cassie’s new girlfriend comes with a cute hipster-boy sidekick. If Molly can win him over, she’ll get her first kiss and she’ll get her twin back.

There’s only one problem: Molly’s coworker, Reid. He’s a chubby Tolkien superfan with a season pass to the Ren Faire, and there’s absolutely no way Molly could fall for him.

Right? (Source)

I’m currently reading this one! I was lucky enough to receive an ARC and I’m absolutely loving it 😀

The Adjustment // The Program #3 (April 18th)

Tatum Masterson never went through The Program. She never had her memory stripped, never had to fight to remain herself. But when Weston, her longtime boyfriend and love of her life, was taken by handlers, she hoped he’d remember her somehow—that their love would be strong enough.

It wasn’t.

Like all returners, Weston came back a blank canvas. The years he and Tatum spent together were forgotten, as well as the week when he mysteriously disappeared before The Program came for him.

Regardless of his memory loss, Tatum fights to get Weston to remember her. And just as they start to build a new love, they hear about the Adjustment—a new therapy that implants memories from a donor. Despite the risks, Tatum and Weston agree to go through the process. Tatum donates her memories from their time together.

But the problem with memories is that they are all a matter of perspective. So although Weston can now remember dating Tatum, his emotions don’t match the experiences. And this discrepancy is slowly starting to unravel him, worse than anything The Program could have done.

And as the truth of their life together becomes clear, Tatum will have to decide if she loves Weston enough to let him go, or to continue to live the lie they’d build together.

Prepare for your Adjustment. (Source)

North of Happy (April 25th)

Carlos Portillo has always led a privileged and sheltered life. A dual citizen of Mexico and the US, he lives in Mexico City with his wealthy family where he attends an elite international school. His friends and peers-fellow rich kids-have plans to attend college somewhere in the US or Europe and someday take over their parents’ businesses. Always a rule follower and a parent pleaser, Carlos is more than happy to tread the well-worn path in front of him. He has always loved food and cooking, but his parents see it as just a hobby.

When his older brother, Felix–who has dropped out of college to live a life of travel–is tragically killed, Carlos begins hearing his brother’s voice, giving him advice and pushing him to rebel against his father’s plan for him. Worrying about his mental health, but knowing the voice is right, Carlos runs away to the US and manages to secure a job with his favorite celebrity chef. As he works to improve his skills in the kitchen and pursue his dream, he begins to fall for his boss’s daughter–a fact that could end his career before it begins. Finally living for himself, Carlos must decide what’s most important to him and where his true path really lies. (Source)

Céline. ❤

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History is all you left me by Adam Silvera


Author: Adam Silvera

Title: History is all you left me

Publisher: Soho Teen

Rating: ★★★★

Genre: YA, GLBT



“There’s nothing wrong with someone saving my life, I’ve realized, especially when I can’t trust myself to get the job done right. People need people. That’s that.”


When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life. (Source)

What I think of it

You did it again Adam Silvera, the world need more books like this one

This book was one big roller coaster of emotions. One moment I was smiling with a cute scene, the other moment I was crying my eyes out.

This story is so touching and you can just feel Griffin’s pain which made me want to hug him for hours and tell him everything will be okay.

Overall I loved the characters, Griffin suffers from severe OCD (Adam Silvera actually suffers from it as well) and it really gives a realistic look on how hard it must be to live with it. Jackson was someone I had a love-hate relationship with, but by the end of the book I appreciated him more.

Seriously please read this book, you won’t regret it

Adam Silvera’s writing is a kind you cannot not love. He has only written 2 novels, this one and More happy than not and I absolutely love his work. He’s been working on a 3rd novel and I can’t wait to read that one.

Céline. ❤

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